Happy New Year!!!

This year:

• I'm not going to give in to my wants, stuff that I don't really have to have. I'm going to answer only to my needs.
• I'm going to find myself, and love her more than I did before I lost her.
• I'm not going to settle for second best. I'm gonna start fulfilling my dreams.
• It's gonna be all about me. Me. Me.
• I have to have these: pride, ambition, independence, dignity, happiness...
• I'm going to find something new that I can be passionate about.
• I have to say bye bye to Ms. Irritable.
• No one can stop me in whatever I want to do. Unless they have very good reasons why I should listen to them.
• You do me wrong, you are out the door.
• I'm going to start from the very beginning. I want to be 'reborn' again.
• I'm going to 're-learn' the art of talking. I haven't done that in awhile, all I have done was listen. (I just realize it's also hard to just be the 'shock-absorber'.)
• I have to gain some weight. (How many times have I said this?)
• I'm gonna build my own room.
• I'm gonna make myself happy.
• I'm not just going to be fine. I'm gonna be gorgeous.
  

These are more than just resolutions. I need these to shape my character.



Today was a very tiring day

well, I don't know about you, but for me, it is.

last night, I was watching Miss World 2005 and Pinoy Big Brother (yes, pinagtiyagaan ko) with my sister. I slept at 2am texting bubu. I woke up around 9:45, ate breakfast and took a bath. we ate at Panciteria Lido (as usual, I think people there know us already) and after eating lunch imagine my surprise when I felt like I had a mid-day hangover. I felt tired already. and very sleepy.

we went to The G! and there was this Nokia Imagenation going on, where they print pictures for free and offered discounts for Nokia Care. I took my phone whose cover was broken (because it jumped off my hands when I was at an escalator --yes, it jumped ;)) there to have it changed for free. the lady said I could have it changed for free if I'm going to upgrade the software. when it was claiming time already, the point where I got more tired, the lady said 'the software failed' and asked if I still want to wait, I said no (I'm so damned tired) I'll just have the covers changed, since that was my original agenda. I can see in her face that she can't do that.. good thing she was nice (or maybe she saw my discomfort already), she just changed the covers for free. :D

on the way home, we went to the grocery to but a few stuff. I thought it won't take us long, but 'lo and behold, the lines were short but the shopping carts are full... for short, yes, we waited for a very long time, again.

now I'm here at home. I'll sleep. I just wanted to blab about my day.




finally!

I've been working on this layout since Thursday and at last it's done. wala lang bored eh. but no I'm not complaining that I'm bored, I like it actually. I don't have to worry about anything at all.

I've got nothing to say, really.

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it's finals night for A Cause Tik at the Medicine Auditorium. goodluck to Rak! :D




I just had to do something

last saturday, I went to school only to find out that our math prof wasn't around. since that was the only subject that's interesting that day, angeli and I, who are both bored out of our wits, went down, hailed a cab and went somewhere else.

well anyway, that's not my story for today.

I don't like the person I have become

yeah. I don't. not anymore.

it's one of those moments where I look back and do a reality check and realize, I haven't been around much lately. I have been very grumpy, and cranky, and moody... and confused about everything.

I'm in a major identity crisis.

not that I can't figure out if I'm lesbian or not. no, not that kind of crisis. just seems like I've lost my sense of self. and I don't like it.

I think I need new people to spice up my life, and of course the old ones whom I just looooovvve.

...

I never thought being so 'something' (don't know the right word) can be so bad... *sigh*



yesterday was a blah. yeah. very boring indeed. I don't know what's with people but really, no 'intense action' happened. and today seems like it's gonna be part 2.

*sigh*

oh, and I couldn't believe what became of our class, there were like 10 people (maybe even more) who got debarred. yes, as in they bid UST goodbye already.

oh well.

'nuff of this nonsense.